Its been awhile since i posted the last entry kan.Well im having a really long holiday which took 2 months where a lots of things happened .
Sekarang aku dah tahun kedua dan tak sabar-sabar untuk masuk tahun ketiga *tak sedar diri baru dua bulan sebagai tahun kedua ada hati nak fikir pasal tahun ketiga. The feelings is near yet so far .
Today im going to write according to what i want to and there is no specific topic so if you dont want to proceed to read this its okay ,see ya in the next entry then hihi.
As i mentioned ,the 2 months break really change me into different person with new perspective and goals perhap. In the first 2 weeks of Raya Puasa i lost my father. The last things he said to me is "jaga diri baik baik,jangan sorang" at the night before he go. He was completely okay that night but somehow in the next evening god decided to take him in sudden.
Thus i have my mother only. You know its quiet devastating when i started to realise i have nobody to rely on during that time . Yea ,im the only child . I stayed at my aunt's house for 2 weeks and then spent another 2 weeks at my step brother's house . I feel so alien during that time .What i know is ,i want my mom . Basically my mom is staying oversea so after a long duration of 4 weeks spending time at their houses i rushed to meet my mom and stay with her for a month.
At this moment i do cherished my mom to the level that i afraid if she does not wake up in the next morning. Everytime i finished performing salah during fajr i always waiting for her to knock my door to check wether i already performed salah. And there was one time i started to panicking why she does not knocking my door . Alhamdulillah it just me being paranoid .
For a month i started to learn becoming a real independent person where my mom and my sister keep mentioning about "bila dah kerja" or "bila dah kahwin" thingy. Then i realised ,i already old ,old enough to ready myself to live on my own and i started to realised too ,im not that into "living alone" .
It makes me realised on many things . It makes me want to study harder , be nicer , always wise in making decision and do not spend too much on perkara sia-sia. Also,i started to behave differently toward my beloved ,because times is always ticking . Every seconds that goes by is really mattered with whom we spent with or what we already did. Times becoming golden to me because i cannot turn back times or teleporting here and there . Times is blessing from God that we need to appreciate . The little things always count , do spend it wisely becaue we will go back to the past searching for good memories .
wasalam
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